HELLO ALL!
Last Thursday I began my own positive campaign for myself. I decided to try "25 days of light and positiveness from darkness". My hopes were that I would put positive thoughts in my day to day by posting one on Facebook and possibly adding some positive to my friends and family that read my posts. Every morning I have been posting positive quote images. In searching for positive messages to begin my morning, I can really tell that I have already began a more positive outlook. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments, but the healing has begun.
I am getting get back into my crafting. I made a few crafty decorations for my birthday party, but unfortunately they never got to "put on display" so to speak. I'm thinking of posting the tutorial for my pom poms I made. I love them! If only they didn't have pink and purple in them, I'd put them up for Parker's 3rd birthday party. I am currently working on some crafts for his Dino themed party. So far I have only made the invites, but have purchased some items to make theme based decorations and some things to make the kiddos goodie bags. I love planning parties!! I would enjoy hearing about any party ideas that were a hit at your kids birthday parties or others you've been to.
Today's quote - Day Nine:
"Be silly, be honest, be kind." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Dear Aubrey,
You don't know me but I'm your Mom. We never got to meet face to face but you are my beautiful baby girl.
The day you left the world, a part of me left too. Although right now I can't understand why you had to be sick or why you had to leave us, I know that with time the loss of you will be eased but not forgotten. You will never be forgotten. I am already noticing that some days are harder than others and that some days the pain is more prevalent. I will be as strong as I can, but I can't fight the tears. Luckily I have special people I can lean on. Your Dad holds me up and your big brother Parker makes me smile and laugh. All of our family and friends give me strength and love.
I need you to know that you were always wanted by me, your Dad, your big brother Parker, your Grandparents and everyone. It saddens me to think that you will never know them as I do.
I felt you move and kick. I saw your precious face, feet, and tiny hands on an ultrasound machine. But, I won't be able to hold you tight, rock you to sleep, comfort you when you need, watch you grow, pick out a prom dress with you, see you get married or anything else that I dreamed of doing with you. Even though we won't be able to enjoy these moments together I will always be your Mom. I will always wish for what could have been. I will carry you in my heart, instead of my arms. I will always love you.
Your Always in my heart,
Mom
