You don't know me but I'm your Mom. We never got to meet face to face but you are my beautiful baby girl.
The day you left the world, a part of me left too. Although right now I can't understand why you had to be sick or why you had to leave us, I know that with time the loss of you will be eased but not forgotten. You will never be forgotten. I am already noticing that some days are harder than others and that some days the pain is more prevalent. I will be as strong as I can, but I can't fight the tears. Luckily I have special people I can lean on. Your Dad holds me up and your big brother Parker makes me smile and laugh. All of our family and friends give me strength and love.
I need you to know that you were always wanted by me, your Dad, your big brother Parker, your Grandparents and everyone. It saddens me to think that you will never know them as I do.
I felt you move and kick. I saw your precious face, feet, and tiny hands on an ultrasound machine. But, I won't be able to hold you tight, rock you to sleep, comfort you when you need, watch you grow, pick out a prom dress with you, see you get married or anything else that I dreamed of doing with you. Even though we won't be able to enjoy these moments together I will always be your Mom. I will always wish for what could have been. I will carry you in my heart, instead of my arms. I will always love you.
Your Always in my heart,
Mom
<3 <3 Koby, I have kept you in my prayers everyday and I wish for you some level of comfort and healing during this time. One of my best friend experienced losing her babyboy at 27 weeks and I was there every step of the way. Angel Babies are the most precious things to a soul and I will continue to pray for you and your family as you find peace in your heart with all of your unanswered questions. To find other mommy's with similar experiences, join the organization called faceofloss.com. You can submit your story and even join a local group in your area. My friend who lost her baby noticed that our local area did not have a group, and signed up to be the group leader and we hold
ReplyDelete(well, try to hold) monthly gatherings to do crafts to donate to the local Infant loss agencies, etc... The women can completely understand where you are coming from and they are blessings in themselves. Maybe you can find comfort there? I will be here if you need a [virtual] shoulder to lean on and if there is anything I can help you with, please don't hesitate to ask. XOXO, Melanie
So sorry for your loss Koby! I am praying for peace in the mist of this storm in your life. I will keep you and your family in my prayers during this difficult time.
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